Well. After a quite long break. I’m back. At least sort of. I don’t promise anything. And nothing you might have to say, or not, will change this. How could the latter …
It’s hard to tell, why I actually stopped blogging.
The great and beautiful blogger Rarasaur once asked why so many blogs simply disappear or are neglected after some inspired and flourishing first month. I did just that and still, I don’t have a simple answer for her.
I liked blogging – putting this words together feels awkward, it’s really been a while since I wrote something – and I still like it.
My enthusiasm started to fall apart as I was forced into a quite long blogging break, aka summer holidays. Afterwards I couldn’t really muster the time and power to pick up the pace again. I tried. I failed. There were (and still are) quite a few distractions, either. Prominently an engaging software development project.
The main problem might have been, that I put to much pressure on myself. I was following advises from the blogging gurus. Like: make a schedule and keep to it; create a series; be predictive for your audience; it’s all about continuity and expectations.
I guess, that was simply to much. To much of a burden.
There is another aspect: my character. It forbids to become really good at anything. I can become quite good, even very good (in some cases and with enough force). But not perfect, no specialist, no guru. I’m a generalist par excellence. And that really bothers me at times.
As soon as something becomes too detached from the reality around me – no obvious connection to the lives of others, no impact, no sense – I flee. I stop doing it, just to see if there is some consequence. For at least an extended period of time.
So this is my last promise: I WON’T PROMISE ANYTHING.